I set my Intentions last night with the New Moon...

And I realized, 

all I want is to be-

Good

Helpful

Honest

Healing

LovedThese seem like easy enough requests of myself. But the more i think about it, the more I think about all of the things I've done in the past...all of the people I  may have hurt, all of the shameful things I've done. All of the times I've been intoxicated or out of control.Can I be good Can I change Wasn't it just two weeks ago that I showed my ass and hurt someone I loved Wasn't it just three years ago that I betrayed my best friend Haven't I made others cry Haven't I lied, stolen, fought, been Pure hateful, angry, ugly, MEAN? I have.

And I want so badly to be forgiven by all of those I've wronged in the past, that it makes me sick to my stomach. 

So last night, I created a ritual for myself. I made promises to my God and promises to myself that will not be broken. I prayed to the moon and all above for strength and forgiveness; and help forgiving myself. I lit candles and incense and smudged myself and my circle. I meditated and I prayed...

And I forgave myself.

I've asked for forgiveness and apologized to all of those I've hurt in the past, if I haven't come to you personally and apologized, please accept my sincerest apology now......I hope that eventually, I can be forgiven. But I must move on. I MUST grow. My path is ahead of me and my travels have begun.
 The things I want for myself- they are true. And the qualities in myself that I'm not so sure of can be changed. I am a work in progress, a living growing maturing being. Still human, I may slip up from time to time, but I will do my damnedest to never slide, to never fall, and to never hurt- ever again.

I Am Good

I Am Helpful

I Am Honest

I Am Healing 

I Am Loved